I Was Always Leaving by Jean Nordhaus
I was always leaving is a lie I keep saying. Sometimes I never meant to leave, no, not at all. Which is a lot to handle.
I Was Always Leaving
Jean NordhausI was always leaving, I was
about to get up and go, I was
on my way, not sure where.
Somewhere else. Not here.
Nothing here was good enough.It would be better there, where I
was going. Not sure how or why.
The dome I cowered under
would be raised, and I would be released
into my true life. I would meet therethe ones I was destined to meet.
They would make an opening for me
among the flutes and boulders,
and I would be taken up. That this
might be a form of deathdid not occur to me. I only know
that something held me back,
a doubt, a debt, a face I could not
leave behind. When the door
fell open, I did not go through.